...sendirian...

sendiri,
ku sendiri lagi,
tanpa teman yang boleh dibuat bicara.

sendiri,
kembali sunyi,
sejak kau tiada.

sendiri,
ku merindui tiap saat bersama mu,
saat indah bersama.

sendiri,
mengenang kembali,
momen-momen indah kita lakar bersama.

sendiri,
aku relakan kau pergi,
agar kau bahagia di sana.

...graduate...

salam,

Finally I "graduate" as a student of semester five with my last exam paper is audit and assurance. With a big hope, I just pray I can pass all the paper for this semester without need to repeat it. Haiyya, afraid because I didn't perform well in all my exam. For me this semester is a little bit tough than other semester (harus laa bugiey, mana ada semakin tua sem, makin senang kerja ahahah). Of course I will look forward for better in semester six, look like I'm getting older too! 

...Sebelum Terlewat...

salam,

Genap 21 Disember 2012. Baru siap melawat "muka buku" yang setiap hari kalau ada masa terluang akan dilawat hehe. Tiba-tiba terlihat status update from one of my friend, she said something about how she told her father that she miss him badly. My heart was very 'sentap' at that time. Perasaan tu datang sebab tiba-tiba terasa ingin buat benda yang sama like my friend do to her dad. Waktu tu rasa macam maw sahaja ambil  mobile phone and dial my dad number, and said "Bapa I miss you so much, rindu yang sangat-sangat". Suddenly all the memories with him came up in my mind, waktu zaman sekolah menengah dulu wajib telefon rumah everyday just to hear my mama and bapa voice. Manja-manja cakap waktu bertelefon dan ambil masa yang agak lama berdiri di sisi public phone, mungkin waktu tu budak-budak yang tengah tunggu turn untuk buat panggilan akan rasa annoying but who's care, I'm talking with my mama and bapa maa, normal laa than yang bergayut dengan orang yang tidak sepatutnya.

Every weekend wajib akan kena lawat, biasa laa budak asrama, dan part ini adalah part yang paling saya suka. Makanan, duit and everything will be refill in this part hehe. Opps, I forgot the pengumuman part hahaha. Kalau time budak-budak asrama lagi asal family datang melawat mesti ada pengumuman macam ni "Perhatian kepada ....(nama pelajar), keluarga anda sedang menunggu di luar", yeahh weekend adalah waktu yang sangat ditunggu-tunggu oleh semua pelajar. And of course before berpisah my mama and bapa will give the same advice, belajar rajin-rajin, jangan ingat main saja -->they really understand me well, I love to play a lot than studying huhu.

Bila naik form3, adik saya masuk pula ke sekolah yang sama dengan saya. Waktu ni ada sindrom baru datang menyerang, sindrom every weekend harus balik kampung hahaha. Saya pun tidak taw kenapa wujudnya sindrom tu, tapi yang pasti setiap kali balik rumah saya akan rasa gembira even tidak ke mana-mana pun. Just stay at home, do the housework and temankan mama and bapa p kebun sudah buat saya gembira. Kasihan adik saya yang terpaksa mengikut kemahuan saya time tu, weekend saya pasti akan paksa dy untuk balik rumah bersama. My mom bukan tidak pernah tegur, sentiasa ditegur sebab suka sangat balik rumah. Alasannya kalau di asrama boleh laa lagi menelaah pelajaran berbanding di rumah, tapi apa kan daya sindrom balik kampung sudah menular dengan jayanya terhadap saya.

Saya tidak ingat sejak bila setiap kali balik ke asrama saya akan bagi ciuman di pipi for my parent, every time I give them a call I will end my sentence with sayang mama or sayang bapa before I end with salam. And I enjoy doing it, of course laa for the first time rasa ada malu-malu sikit, tapi lama-lama macam jadi satu tabiat yang menyenangkan. Mesti hati parent kita pun senang kan, gembira sebab anak dorang suka manja-manja dengan dorang. Benda yang baik harus istiqomah, yes I need to istiqomah for this part. Because of I already experience how it feels when we lost someone we love the most, when you never had a chance to said it again how much you love him anymore, so please if you still have that chance do not feel embarrass tp said it loud because once you lost the chance you won't get it anymore.

p/s DEAR MAMA AND BAPA, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, EVEN WORDS CAN'T DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I LOVE BOTH OF YOU. Ya Allah please bless my daddy soul, may he rest in peace aminnn.

...F.R.I.E.N.D.S...

Salam,

Sudah pertengahan Disember 2012 sekarang. Rasa macam sekejap saja masa berlalu. Langsung tidak terasa    sudah hampir 4 bulan berada di semester 1 tahun 3 pengajian. Mungkin juga disebabkan kerja dan tugasan yang banyak buat diri tidak sedar yang Disember pun hampir melabuhkan tirai, ohh cepat betul masa berlalu.
Di pengkahiran Disember ni tiba-tiba teringin untuk menulis sesuatu tentang mereka yang sentiasa bersama saya di UUM ni. Rasanya penting untuk tulis sedikit sejarah bagaimana kami bertemu di sini. Kisahnya mungkin tidak menarik seperti LOVE STORY, tapi hati ni tetap berkeras untuk buat entry pasal mereka yang disayangi.
Tanggal Julai 2010 merupakan detik permulaan segalanya, Julai jadi saksi bagaimana kami semua boleh berjumpa, berkenalan, menjadi BFF dan insyaAllah akan kekal menjadi sahabat sampai bila-bila. InsyaAllah. Kelas kemahiran Berfikir merupakan kuliah pertama menjadi medan pertemuan, mulanya masing-masing segan untuk memulakan bicara, namun yang pasti keseganan itu telah membuatkan kami semua menjadi sahabat hingga saat ini. Saya tidak dapat membayangkan kehidupan di UUM tanpa mereka ini. Waktu sedih, gembira, saat shabat sangat diperlukan mereka sentiasa ada bersama. Saya bukannya seorang pelajar yang pintar, bila diajar akan terus masuk ke dalam kepala otak, tapi sebab adanya mereka ini Alhamdulillah saya mampu untuk buat yang terbaik bahagian akademik. Saya masih ingat, di awal semester 1, seorang senior tegur saya kenapa berkawan dengan seorang cina, dan saya agak terkejut sebab perlukah teguran itu diberikan. Mahu saja saya bertindak rude terhadap senior tu, tapi saya cuba untuk bersabar dan bertanya kenapa. Jawapan yang diberikan agak menarik, lebih kurang macam ni laa maksud senior tu "dorang ni jenis kedekut ilmu". Tidak terus membuat anggapan negatif terhadap senior tu, saya masih cuba bersangka baik, mungkin dia pernah terkena dengan orang yang seperti itu. Tapi bagi saya Melayu, Cina or India still ada yang suka untuk berkongsi ilmu dengan kawan-kawan yang bukan sekaum dengan mereka. Dan bila fikir balik apa yang senior tu cakap sekarang, macam mahu saja pergi jumpa dengan dia and said; "sorry kak my friend is not that kind of friend, he's very nice, good, and paling penting TIDAK KEDEKUT ILMU!"
Chuah, Fara, Ezra, Mei thanks a lot for giving me this kind of opportunity and becoming my best buddies. I appreciate it damn much! TQ for always be there, support me in every condition, share your ideas with me and thanks for everything. Siblings forever=)

my pororo team=)

 

...miss A(미쓰에이) "남자 없이 잘 살아"(I don't need a man lyrics)...

we present this to all those proud women,

who refuse to make easy money,

who don't like to live on the money of their men,

who don't live on the money of their parent.

this is all for the independent ladies.

oohh~ooh~

C/O:

I can be good without a man,

so don't come by me if you are not sure,

I don't sell myself to anyone,

because I don't need a man I don't need a man (what?)

I don't need a man I don't need a man (really?)

I don't need a man I don't need a man (truly?)

I don't need a man I don't need a man

I can be good without a man.

I paid all the rent,

all the food and all the clothing with my money,

it's not enough but I' satisfied,

that's why I love myself (hey),

I don't wanna spend my parents money,

as if it's mine I'm old enough,

I shouldn't ask for it to them,

that's why I feel honorable (hey).

boy don't say,

I'll take care of you I'll care for you no no,

boy don't play if you're not serious.

C/O:

I can be good without a man,

so don't come by me if you are not sure,

I don't sell myself to anyone,

because I don't need a man I don't need a man (what?)

I don't need a man I don't need a man (really?)

I don't need a man I don't need a man (truly?)

I don't need a man I don't need a man

I can be good without a man.

don't put on airs it might work,

somewhere else but I'm full of confidence,

as much as you're though I'm not good enough,

that's why I love myself (hey),

I'm gonna live for myself I don't care about living a good life,

like others kids do with rich parents and a rich man living a comfy life,

that's why I feel honorable (hey).

boy don't say,

I'm your future believe and rely on me no no,

boy don't play,

if you're not gonna respect me,

C/O:

I can be good without a man,

so don't come by me if you are not sure,

I don't sell myself to anyone,

because I don't need a man I don't need a man (what?)

I don't need a man I don't need a man (really?)

I don't need a man I don't need a man (truly?)

I don't need a man I don't need a man

I can be good without a man.

RAP:

I wake early every morning,

have a busy day,

and don't have time to have one good meal,

but I started it because I liked it,

it's not a good pay but its all my sweat,

it's not a ring my bf gave to me,

my car my clothes all I paid for them,

I bought them after installment saving and giving money to my parents, 

what if the man leaves you when you trust him,

do you envy me?

then you lost.